Reframe the Shame


Reframe the Shame

A couple years ago, out of the blue, I heard myself say outloud, “You’re fifty years old. It’s ridiculous that you’re still struggling with these things from your childhood.”

The last time I was about to attend a family function, my body was letting me know that despite all my best efforts, the anxiety was working its way through my system and setting up camp in my tummy, and I said to myself, “This is ridiculous. You love them. You should be able to handle a social interaction like this without feeling sick to your stomach.”

In the past, as in, thirty, twenty, ten, five, even two years ago, the self-interaction would’ve ended right there. I mean, the self-talk would have ended. But the agreeing within myself – heart, mind, body, will, soul – that I’m ridiculous, that I’m more broken than the next person, that I’m incapable of adult relationships, of healing, of feeling steady and whole, well, that would have all taken place and I would’ve moved on feeling a bit disappointed in myself, carrying shame into the rest of my day.

But here’s the beautiful thing. I didn’t just leave either of those interactions there. I spoke up. Yes, to myself. To the enemy. To the lies.

To the lie that I’m ridiculous for still struggling with childhood pain, I said, “Wait. Of course you’re still struggling with all of that. Those wounds have been lifelong. And they cut to the core of who you are. And you’re human. And you won’t be fully healed from all of that until you’re with Jesus face-to-face. But you’re more healed than you were a year ago, and you’ll be more healed in another year. And it’s all okay.” And then I went on with my day. And I felt a bit better and lighter and much less shame.

And to the lie that I shouldn’t feel yucky before I see people I love, I said, “It’s okay. It’s okay that you feel this way. Some of this is historical and it’s getting better but you (my body) are still carrying it. But you’re safe. And they love you. And you can be yourself. It’s okay.” And then I went on to see the people I loved. And I felt a bit better and more loved and much less shame.

Can I give you a little red flag to look for? If you hear yourself should-ing yourself, you might be in shame territory.

I should be able to handle this. I shouldn’t feel this way. I should be stronger. I should be hustling more. I should…

If you find yourself having these kinds of harsh conversations with yourself, try a couple things.

First, ask the Spirit to nudge you the next time it happens.

Second, say stop. Outloud if possible. In your head if you’re not alone.

Third, try to assess what’s really going on. Take some deep breaths.

Fourth, talk to yourself, to your body, to your heart, maybe even placing your hand on the tummy that’s upset or the heart that feels anxious, and give yourself a Truth-based peptalk, the kind you’d give a friend, with all the gentleness of a mother with a young child. Remind yourself you’re okay, that you’re safe, that you’re loved, that you’re fill-in-the-blank. Remind yourself that Jesus has healed you, is healing you and will one day heal you all the way through.

These steps aren’t magic. But they can help you move towards wholeness and healing.

Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. -Philippians 1:6

FREE (OR SUPER AFFORDABLE) RESOURCES:

if you'd like to reach out, you can email me at elisabeth@elisabethklein.com

you can visit my website at www.elisabethklein.com

in a difficult marriage:

∂ if you’re not safe or if you or your children are being physically or sexually hurt, please set up a safety plan (https://www.thehotline.org/plan-for-safety/create-your-perso...) and contact the National Domestic Violence Hotline (1-800-799-7233)

∂ confidential marriage assessment: http://bit.ly/marriage-assessment

∂ Surviving in a Difficult Christian Marriage e-book: https://bit.ly/Elisabeth-Klein-books-on-Amazon

∂ Better Way to Stay e-course: https://bit.ly/better-way-to-stay-marriage-ecourse

separated or divorced or single mom:

∂ Unraveling: Hanging Onto Faith Through the End of a Christian Marriage book: https://bit.ly/Elisabeth-Klein-books-on-Amazon

∂ Surviving as a Christian Single Mom e-book: https://bit.ly/Elisabeth-Klein-books-on-Amazon

∂ Heartbreak to Hope divorce recovery e-course: ⁠ https://bit.ly/Heartbreak-to-Hope-ecourse

If my work has been helpful to you in any way, feel free to leave a little tip: ⁠https://www.venmo.com/u/Elisabeth-KleinFisher