I thought I knew God. Until that year. Something changed and shifted and made me so uncomfortable.
I couldn't hear or see or feel God in any of that absolutely horrible 441 days and it was breaking my heart.
And then I realized that the mystery was part of the beauty.
I admit I once lived by rumors of you; now I have it all firsthand - from my own eyes and ears! -Job 42:5 (MSG)
I have never released this book because I just can't (you'll soon see why). It is just too personal for public consumption but it's profound in its lessons and I wanted to share this story with women who needed to be reminded that even when we don't feel God, He is still there.
