I’ve been told lately that how I have handled my marriage and how I am handling the dissolution of my marriage show a lack of strength.
I know what it took to stay put because I was trying to give my children the stability that I didn’t have growing up.
I know what it took to attempt to keep my vows when pretty much every day found me praying for an out.
That’s not cowardice. That’s not being a wimp who was afraid to leave.
I stayed out of intentionality, not of weakness or fear.
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. -II Corinthians 12:9-10 KJV
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What a brave, beautiful post.
Reminds me of a statement my aunt always said…
“They can say what they want, but they haven’t lived it.”
Stay strong, Beth…you know you are:)
I’ve been married 28 years now. We’ve been living separate lives in the same home for 6 years now. We have not been sexually intimate for 3.5 years and I’m starting to realize we may never be intimate in anyway a healthy married couple should be. I’m very lonely and longing for intimacy with my husband but I can’t say anything more to him as he is hardened towards me and a yelling match ensues. At this point he doesn’t seem to care anymore but he has not chosen to leave yet. He tells me he loves me still and that’s why he stays. I love him as well but it doesn’t seem enough to propell us to find agreement with each other or even happiness. We’ve been through Christian counselors and prayer but nothing changes in our relationship. We’ve built a life together with our kids who are all but one adults. I’ve stayed for my kids hoping that my husband and I would be inlove with each other and be happy with each other’s company. I’m now 48 and have been with my husband all my adult life. I’m afraid that whenever I perish, even though I’m married, I will die alone, not ever knowing or feeling a man’s true love for me. I also would love to reciprocate my love to someone who would care and love me. I have been wanting to separate now but I will wait until my youngest is 18 and finished with high school which will be in 2 years. I love my husband but it’s hard to live indifferent and separate with him as well as painful and heart wrenching. As each year slips by with no change in our relationship, I’ve come to realize we’re not going to make it. We’ve lost the battle to save our marriage.
To be honest, I would have to say one of the first things I see when watching, from afar, you go through this journey, is your strength. Whether that be God’s strength working in you or something else, I have been absolutely blown away by it. And for the record, I thought that before you wrote this.
I am so, so sorry for your pain. Thank you for sharing it with me.
Praying for peace tonight,
Ummm…I adore you. Completely.
Going through the same thing as you, I get up every morning & tell myself that my strength will be enough with Holy Spirit holding my hand. And even though it’s only been a month since my husband moved out, I find that there is a little peace starting to come back to me even if I’m sad at times, scared at times, absolutely furious at times, lonely at times. I refuse to be around anyone who can’t just love & support me right now. They don’t have to gush all over me – just be understanding, that’s all I ask. Don’t try to push me into getting involved in a lot of other things to try to distract my humaness right now. If I make you uncomfortable, then I’ll stay away until I don’t & we can pick up where we left off.
Amen, sistah! Those who haven’t been through it need to keep their opinions to themselves!