I love it when I get a glimpse into the real life of someone I only know from afar, or maybe someone I admire, and the glimpse turns out to be not that pretty. Not because I wish harm on people but because I need to know that I’m not the only one who is ever-so-slightly losing it a little bit every other day or so. (Perhaps every day depending on the season, the mood, the circumstance, the hormone level.)
So if this is something that helps you as well, then here you go.
I’m sinking a little bit. I’m wallowing. I’m sad. Not in a good place .Circumstantially and emotionally only, I feel the need to clarify. Because I am in a good place spiritually. So let me point out that I happen to believe that you can be walking hand-in-hand with Christ and still have some lingering sadness. It’s not all bells and whistles and running through fields of wildflowers.
Now, I’m doing what I sometimes do.I’m talking to myself. Okay, I’m having arguments within myself.I’m telling my soul two different things and it is having to reconcile them. I’m telling my soul that one of my current circumstances is difficult and sad and a tad too much to bear all the while I’m telling my soul that God knows, goes before, sees all things, will set things right, that it’s bigger than me, that it’s about God and not just about my little feelings, et cetera.
Both things that I’m telling myself are truth. The difference in the truths is that one will shift as time and moods and seasons change and the other truth – Truth with a capital T…all the Truth that has to do with God’s goodness and God’s greatness – will never shift or change or fade away.
I’m going to be okay. I’m frankly okay now. I don’t mind a bout of sadness from time to time. But I just need to remain fixed and buoyed up by that unchanging Truth.
And maybe today, so do you.
“Jesus Christ (the Messiah) is [always] the same, yesterday, today, [yes] and forever (to the ages).” Hebrews 13:8 (Amplified Bible)
If this post helped you, I would encourage you to check out “Surviving in a Difficult Christian Marriage”, found here.