regrets

My divorce was final five years ago this past summer. As I recently prepared for mediation with my ex-husband, my feelings, my stress dreams, my anxiety, the ever-present pit in my stomach told me another tale. You’d think I was still mid-divorce if my body were...

Hurt People Hurt People

Some people have hurt me in my life. Some long ago. Some recent. Some repeated. Some just once. Here’s what I recently wrote in my journal: Holy Spirit, please soften my heart towards — and — and —. I am carrying anger, sadness and fear towards each...

Screw Up

I’ve always felt just a tad less normal than most people. Less put together. Way needier. A huge disappointment. Less capable of taking care of myself. Not a grown-up. Weak. Lazy. Pretty much a screw-up. As if every day, at the end of my day, I could do a mental...

Addicted to Pain

I know someone who is in so much pain she causes pain in almost all of her relationships, and yet, she has no idea. She is the common denominator in a handful of conflict resolution sessions at her church. She is known for her rough edges, for not keeping her mouth...