This is a continuation of a series every Friday where I will be highlighting the growth and healing of one of my readers, a new reader each week. These, my sweet ones, are their brave and vulnerable stories. Take heart…you are not alone. -Elisabeth
It has always been one of my favorite hymns. Every time I sing it, I think of God's faithfulness as Provider of all things good, for food and shelter and clothing, or His faithfulness for answered prayer.
But after losing my husband this year to unfaithfulness after nearly 35 years of marriage, “Great Is Thy Faithfulness” took on a whole new meaning. I had believed my husband and I would be faithful to one another forever. I believed he would guard his heart if he were ever tempted and stay true to me. I believed we would grow old together.
Unfaithfulness was something that happened to other unfortunate souls. I had hope for many months after discovery that he would wake up and see what he was doing, and cleave unto me. Ultimately, he rejected our family for her.
But God has shown me what true faithfulness is during this most difficult year of my life. During my most painful moments of rejection and abandonment, He sat with me and held my hand. He showed me amazing truths in His Word. Through every “first” I experienced with a gaping hole in my side, He walked with me. He never walked away from my lament and was never put off by my anger, or criticized me for feeling as I did. He didn't expect me to get past the pain before He brought blessing. He provided friends and family members to pray for me, and wise people to counsel me.
I've seen His faithfulness in the little things, such as allowing me to cross paths in the home improvement center with another newly single woman, who understood the struggle to pick out a lawn care tool. He helped me learn new skills, like changing the battery in the garage door opener (who knew?), swap out furnace filters, and mow the lawn (conquering this battle was quite an accomplishment for me).
He continues to provide just the right Bible verse, song, or Christian teaching to encourage me at just the right moment. He is introducing me to new friends and reconnecting me with old friends who have been betrayed, and learn from them as they too, figure out how to heal from their deep wounds.
He has been faithful by wanting to hear my voice, not just lifted up in praise and thanksgiving, but to hear those deepest, ugliest, most wounded parts of myself. As I continue this journey, I don't know how long it will be, but I take all comfort knowing that God is my ever-faithful Father and Provider and I will always bless His name.
If this sweet woman’s post resonated with your heart, please know that you are not alone. Here are a few resources for you:
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If in a difficult marriage: Surviving in a Difficult Christian Marriage is available as a PDF/e-book: www.elisabethklein.com/books
If separated/divorced: Unraveling: Hanging onto Faith through the End of a Christian Marriage is available in paperback/e-book: http://tinyurl.com/phowp95
If a single mom: Moving on as a Christian Single Mom is available in paperback/e-book: www.elisabethklein.com/books